So this week’s Linky over at incourage is on ‘worship’. I saw this and thought ‘Awesome – this should be easy!!!!’ I mean I was a worship pastor for half a decade and have been involved in worship teams since becoming a Christian. This one should pie for me. And yet….
I’m pontification, and mumbling under my spirit about what this ‘worship’ word actually means to me any more.
For a long time it was JOB. It was rehearsals, and time frames, and deadlines and annual targets. I mean it was other things too… I tried to make it other than these things… but ultimately the job took over too many times. Eeeeking into what should have been a personal thing. Creeping like a weed. Tiptoeing into something it was never meant to be.
A good old Christian term that means many things to many people and very little to many more.
But we all do it don’t we. We all worship something. Give our time and effort and energy to something we think is ‘worth it’.
I believe worship is a term that will always mean something spiritual to me. It’s about God. It’s for Him. It’s because of who He is.
Worship has now become something else for me.
worship is still about stating in words or just in myself how much I think God is worth my all. I guess the shift has been the HOW. The music has gone for a while (along, thank heavens, with the rehearsals and time frames and all the other gumf). It is now found for me in the way the light bleeds through leaves in the forest. The belly laugh of my 5 year old. The way a movie brings me to tears when it highlights the good and not the ugly or the bad. It is in friendship and openness and field of beautiful flowers which took me 34 years to notice.
These are now the things that stir my spirit to beauty and therefore to God. These are the things that make me convinced, even when no one else ism that He is realler to me now than He ever has been.
This is now my worship.